SciDad, I am sorry you are having a rough day. My H is Jewish and only celebrates Christmas because I do, so every year I do all of the decorating, shopping, etc, alone. It always adds a bit of sadness to it. Ironically, this year of all years, H did all of the shopping for S9. I don't know what happened. Anyway, this is what I am thinking. This is my first Christmas since BD. And I will get through it and make the best of it for the sake of the kids and because I deserve a nice Christmas too, but next Christmas is going to be awesome. I don't know if it will be an awesome "family reunited" Christmas, or single me with the kids, or me with my new bf and the kids. But next year will be awesome. This year we just have to make the best of it.

I thought of your w this morning while I was scraping ice off my car ....like I ALWAYS do, even when my H still loved me. frown Let her keep scraping her own windshield Sci, please?