Keeping the door cracked

[beckyb]

Thanks V. All is well with blood work etc. I'm just sad about the end of my marriage and the loss of my best friend. The holidays are adding an extra laying of sadness and there is stress from waiting for next steps with lawyer. I'm terrible at waiting.

The fact that H seems unaffected by the dividing of our lives just kills me. I don't believe he has any emotional connection to me at all anymore.

I have not been eating well. I'm trying to get that back on track. I'm exercising but that could use some improvement.

I'm pretty busy most of the time and have some fun things coming up.

I'm going into survival mode for now. Eat well, sleep, exercise, pray. It's all I can really do right now.