Think I'm gonna drop the rope. He's not coming back.
He just called, I felt kinda ambushed but we talked. I told him I'm scared of him, that he lashes out at me. I doubt he even knows he doing it and of course he denied it. I told him I couldn't be friends with him as long as that was going on. He said I instill the same feelings in him and that we should communicate through a third party for the time being. He means a mutual friend, but that's the last thing I would agree to.
He has been upset with me, because he feels I deliberately keep him in the dark etc. I broke down and tried to tell him about all the fear I have for the future - where I'm going to live, what I will do for money etc. I don't even know what country I will live in. It gives me so much anxiety.
