Thank you Mutatio. I read this last night right before I fell asleep and I didn't know how to respond. I was feeling lonely and your message made me feel like I had a friend in the world. Thank you.
I had an interesting night. I went to H's annual holiday office party. I looked good, I mingled, I talked to everyone, except for my H. He had complained during the spewfest back in Feb-May that I am socially retarded at parties. I was so good at this party. I proved him wrong. I don't think he noticed as he spent quite a bit of the party outside smoking. (he was not a smoker pre-BD) The car ride home was almost silent, we got home and he stayed up late on his laptop.
I checked in and saw your message M, and thought, someone in this world is thinking of me and caring about me. Someone thinks of me with kindness and care. I am glad I put a smile on your face Mutatio. You put one on mine and I feel asleep in peace.
Until I woke up with chest pains, but that is another story. My anxiety is so high.
