Emmes is everything ok with you? I just caught up with your situation, I am very saddened to hear of the news. This is now the time to for you to even become stronger than you have been, what our Ws have done to us isnt fair but we cannot control them, we control ourselves and chose whats best for us during any given moment /situation, hope u have talked to an attorney and getting the ppwk done, keep the pma the worst already took place, now you really need to detach and be grateful for your children. God bless you brother, keep posting please, you are helping others by doing so.