Good Morning Fogg, thanks for the response. I do have things I love doing. They are part of my GAL activities and also at home on the weekend. The "if they think I move on then they will move on" feeling is there, sometime stronger then other times but it's there. I'll have to work on that. Since my wife's affair in '08 I have glorified the marriage. It in reality has not been healthy in a very long time.
I knew that I was motivated by the fear of if I give up she will give up too. I thought I had to power through that fear to reach my goal. I will now strive to be a husband with a PMA and available but happy following his hobby/passion. Time for another evolution.
