Well, I'll see her on Monday for another dog swap. Will keep everyone's advice in mind. As of now D is still the goal for her, so I'm going to act as if my life is going to be unbelievably awesome without her - because it is.
At this point it feels like two separate spaces, the one in which I miss her and our life together, and the one where she's a non factor, a part of my history. Most days I can stay out of the hurtful space with only brief visits. I'm hoping that time keeps that trend going.
Thanks everyone.
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M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17