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[Mona52]

I accidentally found proof of his A tonight. I am 100% sure it began way before I kicked him out.

On a scale of 1 to 10 I would say my anger at him for not speaking to the kids is near 8. My anger at A is maybe a 4, possibly a 3. It clearly blossomed from an online EA, because she lives like 7 states away. In Connecticut.

I know he goes to see her about once a month. Financially, I would say he is spending about $500 per visit. He flat out cannot afford that. He is going to get evicted. Maybe he will move in with her.

That will suck for me because I will not get child support if he quits and moves. But I would hope no one our age is stupid enough to allow an unemployed person they met online to come and live with them.

Emotionally I am completely fine. I have been on this road before and this time I was not full of foolish fantasies. Last time I could not believe this was happening to me, this time I always knew it would be a possibility. The A is not the issue with our M. It is just a poor choice he is making now, and completely out of my control.

My biggest issue right now is I did not get all of my work done today. I did turn in a book to the publisher that they asked me to write exercises for. They said they will pay $10 per exercise and I wrote 98. So I should get a $980 paycheck. The issue is, I have no idea WHEN they will pay. If they pay me now, before christmas, that would be unbelievable!. I might find out when I check my email tomorrow, so I am very scared to check my email.

They gave me another manuscript to review on Monday, but not to write the exercises for, so I only get a few bux a page, and I dont get paid until the book is published, and that is a year from now.

With everything going on, I have fallen behind on my schoolwork again. I am so close to the finish line, and for some reason, every time I sit to get some work done,I just cant concentrate. I have plenty of other things to do, so I never feel guilty when I push my school work to the side to do actual work, or to earn a few extra bux with the publisher, but now I am stressing myself out because I am behind.

So tomorrow, I am going to put my nose to the grind stone and just flat out keep working until I am 100% done with all of my classes. Now that I got the exercises done, if I can get my school work done, my stress level will decrease by over half I bet. Plus I will only have to turn in my capstone and I will be completely done with my masters, wow, i cant believe I just said that!.