Hi Sotto - I enjoy hearing all of your updates! The feelings you describe capture so much of what I feel, too.
You are a role model in so many ways and your GAL ability is inspiring.
Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13 BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room" 8/15: H back to MBR 10/15: H back in dorm room 1/18: H files, now divorced