There really are no words to describe how much you both help me.
My mom woke up today and yelled my my S. Then she got into the shower, got out and continued to yell at my S. So by the time I got to the boards here this morning, I was a bit stressed. You both help me see that the strength is there to move past this.
About that breathing for 10 - 20 minutes... I dont really have the ability yet to stop thoughts. I have been trying, but if I do not keep my mind actively engaged, it always ends up on H.
I tried thinking of a sort of tropical paradise to keep my mind engaged, but not on anything stressful, but my dang H seems to occupy every single imaginary island in the world.
The only way I can stop a thought is to replace it with a more powerful thought. So, if I feel pain because I am alone and I miss my best friend, I quickly think about how I am going to pay the rent this month, or what I need to turn in next for school, or what will I get S for his b-day. I know that is not as de-stressing as meditation, and I am working on meditation, but I just cant get the hang of it yet.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
