dday, attempting to find clarity

[dday]

Also, this morning, for whatever reason, I am seeing more of my W faults. I know that no one is perfect, but after trying for so long to get her back I put her on a pedestal. That is eroding, and she is coming back down to human status.

I have been bothered by her seemingly pma. But the more I have stepped back and looked at it, she is never allowing herself to be alone. As soon as she gets in a car she is on the phone. And walks into the ballgames on the phone. Maybe she isn't adjusting as well as I thought. Doesn't really matter, but I don't feel quite so disposable.