Now what?

[melweb]

Feeling pretty crappy about myself today. BLahhhhh

Since the BD 3 weeks ago, my sister has been suspicious of an affair...almost certain of it, in fact. He volunteered that he is not, I never even asked or suspected it really! I was leaning toward a MLC. Well, it got the best of me today and I started snooping. I could not seem to come up with anything concrete, stuff that could be construed as suspicious I guess. Now I just feel crappy. CRUD. As if I don't feel crappy enough.

Also I found out that he told our oldest son that we are "separating", which A) we were going to wait til after the holidays to tell them both B) "we are separting" is different than "I am leaving your mom" and C) he did it without me. That makes me hopping mad!!