It was amazing to get out of the city and see my friends, but my D spent 98% of the time acting out. She was super jealous of my friends baby, she was clingy and needy and would throw huge fits. Not saying it was all her fault, but made for a less relaxing time. Still, I'm glad we went.
She didn't FaceTime much with her dad. I asked her every day several times, but usually she declined. One day I told her to call him and then afterwards she could watch a cartoon. She called him, but he didn't pick up, so I gave her the iPad. Soon after I got a text from him saying he was on a conference call and would call her in a little while. Well, when he did she wasn't having it. I urged her to talk to him, but no dice. H said it was fine. Later I get a text saying it is hard supporting me financially while being away from and not being able to see D. WTF!?! Not sure what that has to do with money.
It freaks me out when he says stuff like that. I take it as an indirect threat, that I'm not even sure he knows he's making. He lashes out at me when he is stressed out. I went to IC yesterday and the therapist immediately recognized the behavior from him. The problem is I can "ignore" the behavior from him, but I can't put a stop to the thoughts they start in my head.
Any tips on being mindful and living in the moment? I try, but my mind CONSTANTLY wanders off. Also, any good resources on visualizing the future you want? Any positive experiences with that, I'd love to hear.
