in house S (5)

[vise82]

Hey,

W texts me today, S4 is crying for me. He wants me to call him, so I call but now he wants a hug from me. I tell my W to give him a hug from me.

This is the sad part of all this. The kids are the ones that get it the worst of all of this.

I have read in many threads how the kids cry for another parent when they stay at different houses. Reading threads like that about a sitch that is further ahead then mine show what the future can hold and allows me to at least be some what ready for when it happens to me.

W is texting me again about her weight loss meeting and what to feed the kids. I want to reply and I could be texting her all day. She thrives on that type of communication. But I will just reply when I get home and keep it short.

Loving her and hating her comes in waves now. Having what we had is just a reach away. Temp checking, I have done it in the past with disastrous results.

I need to keep my cool.