Wow, mind is blown 11 (time to shift the tides)

[ep0215]

Uphill - I haven't had to shell out any money yet for his choice but I am sure it's coming. My L is fighting for me to not pay a some for a divorce I don't want. We will see. I can see how this would be aggravating for you. Just wanted to offer my support too.

[Uphill]

Thanks for stopping by vise and ep! All support is appreciated.

Azz... You have a way with words man. It makes us open our eyes to what is really happening the way you describe things. Thank you for that.

[Uphill]

It means nothing, just wanted to share. XF called after work all giddy and cheery. Telling me a few things which I didn't have to know and could have been said later during call to S4. I can tell I haven't spoke to her at all for a few days. That is when she does this haha

[Uphill]

I woke up this morning with a thought that I cannot shake. XF seems to be the fool. I am a very good person, dad, spouse, caretaker... I bent over backwards for many years putting her before myself, and to walk away from that is stupid.

It does not make this easier, but it makes me feel a great deal better about myself. Someday, somebody will be able to appreciate what I offer and give me the same in return

[mahhhty]

Up -

Keep in mind that today (not someday) people do appreciate what you offer!

With that said, everyone can be better. Learn (if you haven't) your contributions and work on those items to do your best in the next relationship.

[Uphill]

Thanks mahhhty!

Just stopping in to journal a bit since I've been too busy to update for a few days. Life has been fairly calm the past few days. Met s4 and XF at a doctor appointment yesterday. S4 had a checkup and everything went well.

Last evening, I went out and met up with a woman who had been showing a bit of interest lately. We had a few drinks, all went well but I just didn't feel like we click. She's a very nice person, attractive, and nothing in particular that steers me away. I just can't picture myself "with" her so I'm not gonna waste any more of either of our time.

Today, I picked up S4 and went to my parents house. Ended up going with them to let S4 pick out their Christmas tree. Fun times! He had fun showing them around like an "old pro" because he knew how it all worked from when we went to get ours .

Oh, and when I picked him up at XF's place, she walked out of the bathroom in a towel??? Wtf is that about haha saw more of her today than I have in months, but for once it didn't bother me at all. Actually kinda disgusted me...

[Uphill]

So the Monday morning "spin cycle" has its grasp on me again... No clue why? Mind is just racing with all the stuff that doesn't deserve any head space.

[ATPeace]

Thank you for dropping by my thread from reading just a few of the pages I can see your strength we are all going to spin from time to time I am with you on this

Take care my friend

Ghost

[Uphill]

Ghost, I appreciate you reading up on my sitch and stopping by to say hi. All the support here is appreciated... With that said, at this point in the game, I think your time may be better spent re-reading your situation and also re-reading the books? I'm not trying to push you away from me in any way, but we need to get you a bit more stabilized here buddy. Let's get ghost figured out. See what works for him. Then in the near future we can sit around and compare notes

I will also post this on your thread to make sure you see it.

[Azzork]

I think your time may be better spent re-reading your situation and also re-reading the books?

I find I get the most benefit and the clearest understanding by posting in other's threads. But thats just me

/hijack