I thought my wifi had been disconnected, but it's still on until tomorrow, so here I am! Unfortunately, wi-fe has been disconnected for eight months.
So, move going OK so far. I've managed to get through �550 at IKEA just getting the essentials for a new home. I'd forgotten how much all this stuff costs. Back at MH tonight. W asked me to do a run to the dump this morning. I said I couldn't promise as I don't know what my day would bring and she went in to a spew fit about it. Funnily, it's become 'our' stuff again, when it needs to go to the dump and re-becomes 'my' stuff when W wants to claim it. Never mind, moving ahead.
RD, yes I remember our conversation in July time. I think I was in crisis mode at that point and would have cut off my right arm to keep W. That's the biggest thing for newbies to learn; it doesn't matter what you do, YOU can't make it better. Only if your W/H actually wants to be part of the process can you have meaningful R talks. If they aren't engaged, you might as well go and talk to the toilet. In fact, you'd probably have a more genial conversation with the porcelain.
Eight months seems like a long time. Where will it end up? Don't know, but I've stopped trying to get my W focused back on the M - it's a no go at the moment. So, for now, I'm concentrating on me and my kids. The crunch will come in four months time when W can legally go for a divorce. It has not been mentioned for months but, unlike in the summer, I'm not wringing my brow every few seconds panicking about it. Getting yourself under control is another key to not becoming a quivering wreck.
It's been a hard slog getting here and if you've read any of the 15 former pages of this thread, well, thanks for sticking with me. One thing I've not been proud about, though, is thinking of ending it all at the start of the process. Frankly, It's embarrassing now and childish. But, that's how down I felt - thinking life couldn't get any worse. It probably will, it might even get better, but at least I'm still fighting!
Last edited by Huddy; 12/02/1505:14 PM.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
