dday, attempting to find clarity

[dday]

Ok Az, that is something that I am finally starting to do. I returned her proposal with a whole lot of ink and highlighter on it. Since then, she hasn't mentioned it. And, I am starting to think that I want to keep the house. I like it there. The boys like it there. And, she can have a little change/loss in her life too. I don't like that I just feel like they are living my life without me in it. I could return a large chunk of my normalcy and my hobbies would be returned to me. And, have my dog back!