Wow, mind is blown 11 (time to shift the tides)

[Uphill]

I've realized these past few days that I have to really work on what takes up my head space. I can't seem to go more than a few minutes without either getting frustrated, upset, angry... This whole situation (as everybody here understands) has turned my world upside down. All the incorrect things that have been blamed on me, all the things that have been said. I react to them the best I can, but they stick in my head. Without these "false" things XF has nothing to explain any of this. I do understand that they are how she feels and that is valid to her, but what I don't understand is where it is all coming from. For a few days she will warm up, then it's almost like somebody 2x4's her and puts her walls back up?

A vicious cycle. Without the warm times, I start detaching and getting on with my life. Then I catch a glimpse of the "old" XF and spin.