Striving to keep the peace within

[mleigh4]

Thanks guys. Ya, it was a nice peek into H head. Yep, still fog ridden!

I wonder about the Happy comment. Was it...He thinks I am happier without him therefore he stays away? Or was it a justification to ease his guilt of what he is doing? Hmmmm, not sure and won't waste my time on that one.

I also realized, yes it is sad he does not get a whole lot of time with S. Although it's his doing, still sad. However, I did not go through having difficulty in getting pregnant twice, losing our first son and 36 hours of labor to have a part time child. The best part is, I waited, for the right guy, someone who would be a great father and husband and never abandon us as my own father did. I waited so long that I didn't finally have my son until I was 37....

And here we are...

But, I will just get that off my chest here. It's neither here nor there, right? As Forrest said, life is like a box of chocolates. I choose instead of bitterness, to appreciate all the wonderful things I have in my life. I choose to cherish my time with S. I choose to keep that peace, it helps me to sleep at night