Thanks for the kind post Rouky. Well, I made a ton of mistakes and they sure weighted more then a ton on me.
But now I can't change all the stupid I did and I came to this crossroads where I need to decide if I continue in the same path and feel miserable every day, or I choose to enjoy life a little more and think about me and my kids.
It seem so simple to say it, I really believed that I would be a pro by now, just helping others to DB like a champ. Oh mine, what happen? I found out that this whole detachment is worse then eat a very spice pepper.
Yeah, at least now I can help others telling them what does not work if you want to DB and detach.
My first goal: Start reducing my mental time that I have been wasting on my XH.
Results: today I consciously stop thinking about XH. He sent me some schedule for the kids during 12/15 and 1/16 - I was angry to see so much non sense and I was angry and upset with his stupid jan schedule. I stopped myself and tough that I was just wasting my time, that if something is not what I want or need then I will communicate it to him, period.
So, I avoided to think of him, and about him too much today. Well, I know it sounds stupid, but it is a start and I need to start somewhere to let this all go.
