Focus on living life as it is in this moment

[focus22]

So, your H wasn't lucky to be married to you?

I used to crack that joke back and wink, whenever someone said that to me in the past.

This last year though, it all got too overwhelming. I remember starting to cry that particular time and saying 'I know' over and over.

It was just at the time I started getting a series of increasingly debilitating physical illnesses. I just couldn't take any more of the stress I had been soaking up from my H for the previous however many years.

Ignore these simpletons - they will side with whoever they feel has the upper hand/better story to tell.

He'll be the one that shouts loudest, for sure.

Focus is Focus. Just need to work on the here and now and not the past or future. Oh, by the way, none of it is your fault. We've all been at that point. You're still in hurt mode. Don't panic.

I'm trying desperately not to. I've still managed to keep my silence with regard to texting, emailing or speaking to him.

Time is probably passing in different ways for the both of us. For him it's probably speeding past. For me, each day is really dragging at the moment.