dday, attempting to find clarity

[dday]

Tl2, better than 4 weeks ago...no. Better than last week, yes. 2 weeks ago I thought things were getting better, expectations right? Then I got another bd. Since then pma has sucked. Now, went and got my haircut, had a peptalk from a buddy at work (afterwords I started whistling a song). Have dinner plans with sis tomorrow (her H just called and invited me), and cousin just invites me to go to a ballgame with them at the school. So I am cleaned, fed, and ready to go. It will be good to go see everyone and not have W there. Kinda weirdly excited. Ic tomorrow night too. Boys Thursday thru Sunday at church, then off to DC to go fishing and sightseeing. Week is shaping up well