Because seeing her always affects me in a bad way. I start to miss her, want to hug and kiss her when I see her. We start to act like nothing has happened . Best friends talking. She starts to think everything is normal, has ideas for the three of us. I have to start saying no things have changed. Feels like it would be steps back in terms of giving her time and me time to try to stop thinking about at all hours. Don't want to be seen as the best friend and nothing has happened. Feel like I would be helping her to cake eat again.
