Got the Christmas tree done and S4's train set up! He was extra excited for that smile. I'm still feeling kinda dumpy like yesterday, I was getting through it and it seemed to be fading until I got those papers... It's like every time I think we have everything settled and get into a routine that works for everybody, a curveball is thrown at my head?

I mentioned that to XF last night. I said I thought we had everything worked out? I thought that a few times. And every time things seem to be working and going without a hitch, you poke me again. I asked her when it stops. Explained that I will not live my next 14 years in fear of the next "scheme" on her end. She obviously had no answers but I had to get it off my chest.


Me 34, XF 27
Many years together
Son 4
Engaged
Not engaged
Many false starts by XF
7/16 new girlfriend comes into my life
2/17 girlfriend moves in my home