I would also love to not watch my W. But I haven't discovered how yet.
Here's my opinion...from the post I just left you:
Originally Posted By: Azzork
The best way to not think about W is to keep your brain occupied with something else.
And not just ANYTHING else. But new, exciting, fun stuff. Going to football games and mini-vacations is a great start. But I want to hear about NEW things you are doing. NEW experiences that you are having. Can you join a meetup or some other kind of group? How can you make NEW friends?
The biggest thing for me was that when I was married, all of my friends were really XW's friends who kind of became my friends through her. So, they always considered me as my ex's husband. But since BD, I've gone out and made new friends that know me as "Azzork" and just know that I have an XW. But they like me because of who I AM, not who I KNOW.
Through that process, I gained so much self-confidence, companionship, self-respect, faith, hope...you name it. Once you start getting all of that stuff back, it's easy to not worry so much about your W, because you see that that relationship just isnt that important.
In my opinion, you seem, almost, scared to take that step. Like you cant let go, due to the fear that she wont come back.
