You're a really strong woman. I really struggled with my work after BD and I have been working for most of my married life.
Isn't it strange how we LBS feel guilty for the darnest things? I guess it's because we still feel very committed to our (x) spouses.
After my D, I would feel very guilty for going out socially, even though the X had abandoned me and kid for the TP and her family. I felt like I was the one who was being unfaithful!
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.