Thank you Jelly and Ep. I just went through about 3 weeks of depression, I was really falling back into "the pit", was on this forum all the time, serious introspection and really digging deep. I think it all lead up to this, a newfound clarity. I don't think it was a step backwards, I think it was a necessary time to regroup and stop GAL'ing for a little while to get my thoughts worked out. I surprised myself with how well my words flowed, how non-emotional and logical and honest they were. I didn't cry. I didn't accuse. I didn't profess my love. I did say I wanted to stay married, but I sounded strong and not weak.
I don't know where this will go. I do think H might try to scapegoat D. I actually do. And its possible she made it all up. I have no way of knowing because if we confronted MIL she would definitely lie. And it doesn't really matter who said what. It is time to get everyone out of my marriage. I am not a reality show, this is between two people. (I recognize the irony that I am posting this online.)
