I know I should not confront W but how can I let this go? I realize she will just lie to me.. again. But, to ignore it? It's driving me NUTS!!
During our road-trip and over the weekend W kept going over the activities now to the end-of-year. There is a lot, half are kid activities but the rest are purely adult relate events. I want to ask her what's up with her and the OM. Perhaps she would prefer to go with OM. I recall reading somewhere that someone did not want to be in an open marriage; I understood the concept but now I am feeling that I too do not want to be in an open marriage.. where I get nothing but the crap that comes with a marriage. Why should I PRETEND to be married? This is not my definition of a marriage. I wasted 2 years of my life.
Flashback.. several weeks ago she removed all pictures and memorabilia of marriage. She even went into my dresser and threw out all the greeting cards/notes I kept from when we were dating. I found them in the trash.. and if I didn't find them by chance my kids would have thrown them out with the trash (their chore).
Back to present.. holidays around the corner and she already sent out invites to our Christmas party. But for the past few days I have been seriously thinking perhaps she can do ALL the work (and cover all the cost herself.. she works), I will step out that night and she can invite OM. Why not, many of our friends know who this OM is because of his business (travel baseball team) then it does not need to be a secret A. OM can be her date for the other holiday events too. I do not want to be with her!
