Hi Pink. I'm so glad you posted. Sounds like your H is still in his MLC. As we have said before you clearly love the man so you looking for and seeing hope is perfectly normal
Do you think your standing for your R ? Can you see yourself without H in your life ?
From the outside looking in you are still very much in love with H and you would accept him back Only you know how you really feel and what you are prepared to accept from H in a new R
For me ( and remember I love you !!! ) you need to do something different. The path your on now seems to be.a big circle with H having his cake and still living his own life. I'm no expert but if you keep repeating the same mistakes you will not have a different outcome
People forgive and people move on or forward. Your current sitch is causing you lots of pain but you are in control of you. No one can judge your choices if you believe they are right for you
I do worry that your passionate side may be controlling your head sometimes but if it didn't maybe you wouldn't be the Pink we all love !!!
I'm so glad your posting as it sounds like you could do with some expert advice
