Things are happening. I'm not quite sure what, but the energy seems to be shifting and I am starting to feel better about where life is heading.
I want to get the rest of my stuff out of the marital residence so I can more fully move on. I am ready emotionally. H is dead--OW has taken over. I have no interest in having an R with OW--and since she has got him by the scrotum he has lost all attraction.
I wish him the best and hope he is able to come out of this in a healthier state of mind--once she no longer finds him a fascinating play thing. I am starting to believe she targeted him when he started to fall into his depression and paranoia a few years ago. Maybe these are all things I am just telling myself to make it easier to come to terms with the fact that the man I fell in love with no longer exists. I need to believe that he did exist once upon a time and that the past 15 years of my life was not a complete delusion.
As for my kids. I can only be responsible for my side of the street, and that includes their relationships. The best I can do is provide a safe haven full of love, honesty, and security on my side. And allow them to navigate their way around his side without my interference. They are smart, wonderful, loving kids and they will survive this. It isn't what is best for them, but it is what it is, and I can only be responsible for what is within my control.
*sigh* 'Tis the season. New traditions start this year.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
