dday, attempting to find clarity

[dday]

We have S8 travel basketball tonight. I haven't heard from W since I dropped off my changes to the settlement proposal. I'm sure that she didn't take it well, as it's the first time that I have stood up for myself in months. So there will be, I assume, tension. I didn't ask for anything unfair, I just can't roll over and let her take everything either. I still hope to find the woman I married someday, but the more I look the more I notice that she is gone. I sure hope she comes back. I'd cut off an arm to have that girl back, not so much with what she's become though.