Listen...here's a 2x4 for you bc I was in your EXACT same position one year ago....exact. Feel free to read up to see what I'm talking about.
In my experience, it's nuts to think that a waw who didn't respect the boundaries of marriage would respect them now. You do NOT deserve to be treated this way. Read that again.
My suggestion is to detach and do it now, for your own sanity and your kid. My boys were 4 and 2 at the time, I know exactly how much pain you're in and I'm very sorry.
You will have an "aha" moment...can't tell you when, took me two months. You'll wake up and realize that the life she is setting up is toxic. You deserve way better than that, we all do.
Detaching will speed up the process. Start exercising, playing an instrument, learn Italian. You need to be the same one here, it seems like you already are on that path.
Don't give up. Keep posting, reading, talking. This will get better, it just takes time. It's like a marathon...,it just [censored], but you can't jump ahead to mile 25.
You will come out of this stronger than you ever imagined.
We're all here for you.
As of December 2023 Me: 45 XW: 43 S13 S10 ILYBINILWY: 11/14/2014 OM: 11/14/2014 D process: 12/14/2014 D final: 04/2015