This spoke to me as I feel myself cycle ariund these thoughts as well. Through your journaling, you seem to be heading down he path you know you should and what you need to do to stay on that path.

Keep it up Scrant and stay strong.

M: 33 W: 30
T: 14 M: 9
S2
BD: May/2015 (w moves into spare bedroom one week later)
EA / PA (discovered): June/2015
W moves out (living with OM): Sep/2015