Yes it is gut wrenching and brutal and a real test of my abilities. I'm only happy on the mat it's the only place I dont feel the sh8t of this reality. I opened the academy for open mat, as usual and she was saying she needs space. So OK fine, then why did she. Ome train jiu jitsu? Lol I'm annoyed and aggravated and growing to be unaccepting of her bs, her lack of understanding of what she did. Maybe she does understand but I don't know she doesn't say. I feel like staying at the Academy at least it feels like a home
