Striving to keep the peace within

[mleigh4]

Hi Hawho. Thank you for stopping by. You know, asking H any kind of personal questions has become a taboo thing for me throughout this crisis, but I think I am ready to give it a try. A simple "how are you doing" is in order. Your post made me realize I never ask him anything...

I made it through my Thanksgiving weekend and am happy with how it all went. I have no regrets about how it all went down with H. We did our separate things and I kept my promise of keeping it light and friendly.

H came yesterday to pick up S. His 11:00 arrival was more like noon. I expected that as his time management has gone out the window. He brought me a timer for the Christmas lights I set up. We had one here but couldn't find it anywhere. He also brought some supplies to fix the leaking pipe. He heard the handyman had looked at it and whoosh, he is fixing it! Lol.

He was outside in the front for about an hour working on it. During that time, I heard neighbors outside, people walking by, wild turkeys gobbling in the distance, our dog running around...and as I sat in the house with S, I wondered if H missed any of this. You know, all the sounds of home.

When he was done, he came in. Me and S were both sitting at the kitchen table doing our own thing. H just stood and looked at us for a moment quiet until we both looked up and smiled...I asked him all done? He said that should do it. He then laid back on the sofa chair and called dog over to snuggle.

After a few minutes, I got up to get S things together to go with his dad. H was still laid back on the chair and I had a flash of curling up in the crook of his arm like I used to do any time he was in that position. H caught my eyes and I looked away, didnt want him to see that thought.

We chatted a bit, was a nice mini visit. He even complimented me a couple of times about different things I was concerned about, saying he knows I can do it.

H left with S and I got to baking. What a nightmare. I am a cooker, not a baker. I forgot the eggs in the first batch, then forgot to do the criss cross in my peanut butter cookies on the second batch, but I managed to make a plate of cookies! Before leaving, I was snuggled on the couch with dog watching The Santa Claus and got very close to flaking on the party! But I don't flake so off I went.

There must have been 30 different kinds of cookies and tons of food! A great idea for a party, but I was really feeling tired, so I stayed a short while, got S and went home...

Oh, that reminds me. My friend, mom of S BFF, had texted before picking up S from H to take with her that she had texted H last night and that day to confirm the pick up but never heard back from him. So she was checking with me to make sure the plans were still on. She has already mentioned to me before that she is done trying to coordinate get togethers for the boys with H because it is just too difficult! Lol. Boy do I understand! Anyway, H Finally responded to her and all was fine.

S told me he had a great time with them at their family get together and that he even met a new friend.

Back in the day, I would have lost sleep and stressed wondering what last minute plans H had made that he would give up a night with S for. I am curious about it, but it did not consume me.

S and I were in bed at 10 and both slept until 9 this morning. I think this busy weekend has caught up to us. Today, I vow to rest all day!! And watch lots of movies....and eat leftovers.

Happy Sunday