Glad to hear you're doing well Zeus, and that you're using hypnosis for yourself. How do you think it worked for you on the pool front?
I've been following some of your thoughts on other threads regarding your future relationships, what you can expect from them and if they're even worth getting into. Lots of introspection, but it also seems like a lot of thinking in an arena where rationality isn't going to work ahead of time. We just can't figure out a potential relationship before it happens. It's like trying to think our way into learning how to swim by reading books. Everything changes once you dive in the pool for the first time.
Future relationships are on a lot our minds as our M's slowly wither away. We all carry the pains of our M's exploding, and the subsequent aftermath into our day to day lives, especially when we think of the possibility of having to go through the scenario again some day.
I have a feeling that someone is going to come along when you're ready and she'll change your view on many things. Her desires and appetites may match or even surpass your own, crazy as it may feel. With 7 billion people on the planet and a number of them female, I can't imagine that you have the most extreme outlook on sexuality.
If the match is a good one, she's also going to allow you to just be Zeus. You'll get to be you with all of your intensity and drive. She may even surpass you in this area too. Or just give you the space to be as intense or relaxed as you feel. The need for the intensity may get softened by being supported in ways you don't know about because you've never experienced them.
Each person brings a completely unique flavor to a relationship. What we all have to compare them to is the women we've been with in the past. But that's not fair, as each person is so unique. Women you date will have their past relationships to compare with you but how unique are you? How many men have your background, your intelligence, your drive? How many have your experience with pool to shape their world view?
I'm sorry your M blew up Zeus, and I'm sorry your W hasn't been able to get past herself to recognize just how much work you've done. It sounds like she hasn't done much of her own at all. On some level I feel sorry for her because not only is she missing out on you and the family she probably wants, but she's also missing out on actualizing herself.
You're one of the long time guys on here that's still active so I appreciate your presence and comments, you could have bailed a while back as many before you have.
I hope you have a peaceful Sunday.
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M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17