Everyone is probably right in their replies. I know I have bben neglecting myself...I was suppose to get my hair permed 5 mos ago, something else always "come's up" though so I end up putting it off. I had to quit doing my nails because I overbuffed them and they started splitting quite badly on me. I'm waiting for them to grow out. the ritual I had gotten into of wearing make-up everyday has fallen by the wayside...mainly because a 10.00 bottle of make-up is not a NECESSITY in my mind.

I have been beating H up with my "talks" too No, that isn't an ASSumption...that is what he told me

He said that he realizes that I am not making accusations, that I am trying to "improve" things, that I just want us to communicate better...

He asked me to put DR away and to walk away from the BB...

He told me that I am too caught up in it and I am mentally wearing him out. He says that I am just trying too damn hard. He said I haven't gone too far yet but that I am heading that way...he does not know how much ore he can take.

I guess there comes a time when you HAVE to do this. You have to take what you have learned and go with it, without leaning on your "crutch" so- to speak. I can understand where he is coming from, I KNOW that I have been getting REALLY intense lately.

I guess I should take heart that he is comfortable enough with "US" that he feels I no longer need to keep "hitting the books". He said that the PROCESS is good and that it worked when it was needed...but now it is hurting us.

I have to respect H's request. I may still check in and read from time to time, I don't know. I guess I won't be posting though. Yes, this sucks because I think I was on to something with this new thread ...maybe there will come a time when I can pick it back up...maybe I WILL learn more by not leaning on the BB so much?

I love all of you...you have all become good friends to me even though I don't "see" you I apologise to those I have been posting too and trying to help when I can...I know you will understand though that sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do for the M and your S.

Hugz,
Zoo

"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm." - Mahatma Gandhi