Ghost, it's so nice of you to come visit. I have been pleased with what I have been reading on your thread. You are moving forward and I am happy to know your feeling better.
dday, thank you for the compliment. I struggle with them. I have a strong urge to do the right thing. I spent many years showering myself in selfish behavior. It is important to me to give 100% to this process. It may be easier for my wife to decide if I continued to be the selfish egocentric fool that I was but I reject my past behaviors and never want to be that man again. That rejection fuels my strength.
