I DO respect myself now. I am fighting an honorable fight. I have bettered myself. It is worth it. Most people give up, but not those of us here. Even if I can't have a future R, I will be a better person because of this. For me. For my boys. And for whoever I share the rest of my life with.
That's magic dday. There's something that changes us that comes from fighting a fight we probably won't win. It's noble, no matter what brought us here in the first place, our own mistakes or our spouse's. Keep letting it change you for the better.
Trust in this process, the near violent levels of self improvement needed. Rd passed something on to me that I'll pass on to you as well. "You've become an H only a fool would leave, now what does that make your W?"
Keep working, day in, day out. Good things lie ahead.
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
