dday, attempting to find clarity

[dday]

Thanks tl2. The forgiveness and respect correlation is simple, but has been out of my grasp for some reason. I too have had things brought up from before kids. Things I have forgotten about. Things I didn't know bugged her. Part of that is on me, part on her. Justification is exactly right.

I DO respect myself now. I am fighting an honorable fight. I have bettered myself. It is worth it. Most people give up, but not those of us here. Even if I can't have a future R, I will be a better person because of this. For me. For my boys. And for whoever I share the rest of my life with.