[BrightFuture]

Thanks HaWho for your kind words

This weekend has been a bit thought for me. I’ve been keeping busy. Dinner on Thursday, B-day party yesterday, and another dinner at my sister’s house tonight. But… I feel sad and a little down, and maybe a little lonely in spite of all the activities and people around me.

I went to Thanksgiving dinner to my BIL’s house. My sister had to work, but her H and one of the sons came too. My son and his GF showed up later for the desserts. My BIL had his longtime friend and his son visiting. So, we had a small company. It was not as awkward as last year when BIL’s GF was in charge, LOL. We had a good time. As far as I know H didn’t text or call anybody (including my BIL, his brother), whishing a happy Thanksgiving, like he did for the first couple of years after BD. There was no text to anyone in my family last year either, but I know that my BIL got one.

It was after 8 pm when I texted H wishing him happy Thanksgiving. He replied later thanking me and wishing me the same. Then he asked if I did dinner at BIL this year again. I replied back confirming that and letting him know that everyone was still at BIL as well. He sent a text telling me to say hi to everyone. Which I did. I think everyone has a surprised look on their faces. My sister’s H asked me to tell H that he says hi too and happy Thanksgiving. So, I sent H a text telling him that everyone wished him a happy Thanksgiving and attached the smiley face at the end (I was happy and having fun after all, LOL.) Got crickets in return…

I just read my posts from the last year. Here is what Job posted to me back then:

Many of them don't acknowledge their family and friends when a holiday rolls around. I think your h is a very slow MLCer and he's just hit the spot where they don't have much contact.

This is the exactly same thing that applies this year, isn’t it. Except, last year, H was in that other state where he worked. It was cold and there was snow on the ground, which H hates. I don’t know what he did for Thanksgiving dinner last year, probably nothing, so it was understandable that he was not happy. This year he was in his favorite place, at his “home”, if you will, and I’m pretty sure he was invited for dinner to this crazy woman friend’s house. So, he should be happy.

I just don’t get this MLC stuff, or whatever it is. It looked like he was trying to reconnect with my son, keeping more in touch with his family, etc. And then… just ignoring everyone on this family holiday. It is just so weird to me. Maybe he found a new family in this crazy woman’s house, and now he doesn’t need any of his family (or what it used to be) anymore. Or, maybe it is another case of “hitting the spot”, like job said. But, this time it is actually different. This time it is supposed to be what he wanted, being at the vacation home with lots of friends… He is supposed to feel happy this year… Maybe it still doesn’t fix anything and doesn’t bring that happiness he is looking for. I might be wrong. But, all I know that happy people don’t behave like this.