I've been following your thread and thought I'd chip in if that's ok? You have Sandi2 helping you and she's a big hitter so listen to what she says.
For me, I'd like to to a mind experiment. Imaging your best pal of the last 20 years, who's always been a good friend and there for you suddenly has a bad streak and steals you car. Crashes the car and you are left out of pocket with no car. Would you then give him the keys to your next car? Would you still hang out with him at weekends? Even if he wasn't remorseful and laughed about the time he stole your car?
Bad analogy I know but my point is you would be p!ssed at him and you would let him know as much. And you probably wouldn't be his friend until he was truly sorry and tried to make amends. And if he didn't? Well his loss.
See where I'm coming from? She holds all the power right now mate and you are scared. Scared of the consequences of something you did not create and are not in control of.
But you are in control of you. Dignity first. That's why they say grow a pair. Why are you scared?
Now I know what that fear is like. I was that guy for a long time but it starts there. Self respect. Dignity. Control over your own actions. You will not be treated like a doormat. After all you wouldn't allow that treatment in any other area of your life now would you?
See that constant pressure you feel in your skull? That only goes away once you let go and start excerting yourself.
You can do this mate.
Peace
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
