Focus on living life as it is in this moment

[Painter]

This is so new... It must be very hard for you to think about talking to him. I have read your threads and thought about replying before, but felt a little down in the dumps and not encouraging at all.

I would probably have replied with 'What do you want to talk about?"

You can also ask that he e-mails you, so you won't have to deal with the difficult emotions of talking to him, if you don't want to. It can also be helpful in order to keep calm and get to document everything.

ETA: Just realized that I skipped a whole page of posts when I replied...