Bridges that cross the Universe!

[Di-mond]

Still unpacking and purging! I'm actually starting to feel good about living here. It was so difficult, but necessary step for me to move on. Speaking of moving on, emotionally I have become much more detached. I don't have the overwhelming pain that has accompanied me for the past 8 months. I am moving forward with getting the separation agreement done. Appointment with a L next week. I have systematically started to remove my H from my life. I have nothing of his anymore. No pictures, no knock knacks, nothing. We are still FB friends, but that is another step for me eventually.

So, yesterday was my H's birthday. We had made plans a while ago for me to come see him. His mom came as well and we all went out for an early dinner. It was pleasant. Had a nice chat with my MIL. Not sure if we will stay in touch in the future. I guess I'm lucky that my H and I were only together for 5 years. It makes it a bit easier letting go of people that I have come to care for.

As far as my H's friends, I don't think they ever really liked me. He didn't socialize much after we got together. Most didn't know me at all. Even my H's best friend didn't know about my illness. He separated his before life and his life with me quite well and then after BD he seamlessly returned to his former life. A life as a bachelor, working security, riding his motorcycle, sleeping and playing his video games.

This is not the kind of man I want as a life partner. A man that only thinks of himself. It's funny, but recently I have thought that my H has set the bar so low that pretty much anybody would be a better H. Not that I'm out looking for another H any time soon. Lol!
I am finally working on myself and trying to figure out why I keep attracting men like my H. I need to break the cycle!

On a side note. After I got home last night I received two texts from my H.
"Glad you made it home ok" and "Miss you. Xo"
Those are the first texts in month that showed some kind of emotion towards me.