Thanks Becky. I am hoping that this forum is slow today because everyone is having a great time and too busy to post.
My anxiety is high. I know I can do this, but I also know that this situation is so unhealthy for me.
OK, things I am grateful for:
My children!
My daughter's lab results came in and her hormones are stabilized.
I had the chance to visit my 96 year old (almost 97) grandmother this morning. (she has no idea who I was, but so happy to see me and she told me about 20x how beautiful I am! She has alzheimers.)
I have SO many good friends, online and in the real world.
I am stronger than I ever thought possible.
H's aunt noticed my weight loss! (you know the ILYBNILWY crash diet is very effective)
I am going to visit an old friend tomorrow. And a new friend on Saturday!
OK, taking a walk before dinner. Hope you are all doing well.
Hey pho - I'm here. No Thanksgiving up here in Canada (survived it already) you will too - you should also be thankful for your sense of humor - we are!!!!!
Thank you Jpeg! It is almost over here, I am so emotional, this day has been hell. Nothing really happening, just emotions and anxiety. I don't want to do this any more. I want to either be separated already or reconciled. Being around H's family is too hard.
I am not making a decision today. I am sticking to DB and my plan, will give it all more time. But I am emotionally done. This is too hard. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but I am looking for it. Whether its a train or the exit I don't care anymore, I am looking to get out of this tunnel.
Hang in there....The day is almost over. You made it. Give it a few days for the emotions to calm down.
I didn't see or hear from my wife or any of her family today and the day went pretty well focusing on my family. But at the end of the day, I actually had more or less the same reaction as you.... just want it to be over one way or the other.
Pho, in many ways in glad I'm separated from H. I don't know if I could live in your situation. But you've survived another day.
All in all I had a pretty good day with family. Saturday will be hard though. That's the day we used to get together with H's family.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
Thanksgiving is over. Now what to do the rest of the weekend. It's supposed to rain all day today and maybe tomorrow so there goes my landscaping plans. I could dust my house or pack up some stuff. Don't really want to. These are the days I hate. Home along with nothing to do. Yuck.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
Well I faked it all day, was lucky enough to have 2 1/2 hours on the mat giving intro lessons and training. Felt great after had a clear mind then bam... man it hit me last night again, hard to sleep last night too. Woke up to a hated vision in my head. I'm training 3x today and putting brakes on the W suv. Hope to get through the day...
