Reality is my middle name

[123Gwen]

So much gratitude for the blessings in my life yet I just can't seem to shake the grief after 18 months...

He threw us all away. The only time I ever hear from him is when he is leaving the country for business. For some reason it is the only thing he took from anything I ever said to him since bomb drop. Anyway he was supposed to go to Europe the day after the Paris attacks so I texted him that I wasn't sure if his plans had changed but to please travel safely. I got nothing -- not a thanks or anything. Not to even tell the girls he is okay. It chilled me to the bone.

The girls got their ".insert holiday here" text message. They chose not to respond to him because it was literally "Happy Thanksgiving. Hope you are having a good day." He hasn't bothered to see them in 18 months. They expect better and so they have gone completely dark.

Yes I am neutral with my daughters but it is still so sad.mSad that he has destroyed their love for him and their respect for him. Just more sadness. Will try to post more of an update later just wanted to release some of this sadness. It has been a good holiday with friends just hard not to reflect this time of year.