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[Zues126]

Thanks Sunny! Happy Thanksgiving to you and all DB board members as well!

I'm not doing anything today. My family isn't getting together this year and I don't have my children today. It is snowing out. So I'm just going to stay home, relax, play some online poker and chess, watch a movie, read a bit, post a bit, and probably take a few naps I've never been very good at "GAL", but honestly I like the life I have and like being on my own a lot of the time. Last night I went out and shot some pool so I'm not a complete hermit.

OK- the hypnosis is a very good thing for me. I went in on Monday, and after discussion my hypnotist did a recorded session designed to start each day with. It has a couple of sections.

First is just getting relaxed, in a trance so to speak.

The next section is all about shrinking my thoughts. Like picturing your thoughts as if they have physical space, like a thought bubble for a cartoon character. When the bubble is big thoughts are racing quickly and it's uncomfortable. But with each breath the thought bubble gets smaller. Less thoughts fit in, and then they move more slowly. Little by little I visualize the thought bubble getting so small there is almost no thought at all. Then I bring it inside of me and feel almost completely still. I feel how much more manageable everything feels, how in control I feel. And I anchor that feeling, and that technique, so I can regroup at any point I feel anxious.

The third section is in terms of dealing with emotions. I am at a lake. I have a heavy rock in my hand I've been carrying. It is the pain and anger from the last year. I realize I don't have to keep carrying it. Then I visualize how I'll feel without the rock in my hand, how it will sound when it plunks to the bottom of the lake. Then I take a minute to THANK the rock, for making me who I am. Finally I cast it into the water and feel the relief from being less burdened. Sometimes I have more weight than that, so I have to go through this a few times.

The fourth section is on gratitude. I spend some time thinking of the things that fill my life with joy. I see my children, my parents, my best friend, my life itself. I let those feelings build and I take a moment to be really appreciative for what I have and the good in the world.

The last section is on visualizing my day and building my energy. I see myself working out in the gym, feeling good as the energy builds. Then I see myself moving through my day, present, calm, in control, and with a good feeling as I enjoy the road in front of me. Finally I build energy up in my body and am ready to go when the recording ends.

I've only been doing this three days now, but again, I used a hypnosis recording for pool so I know what it does. It ISN'T a magic bullet. But I think it was a good move for me, as it's a good way to start my day more proactively and intentionally. The first time I went through the gratitude section tears were rolling down my eyes as it was so profound, I was so overcome with the love I have around me.

Anyway, that's the update on that part of it. It does feel like a lot of weight is off my shoulders. It's not a magic wand, there is more I need to process...but so far so good.

So while I'm doing really well, and I am in my happy place right now. Thanks for checking in Sunny. Talk soon!