kavikratu

[mutatio]

My first thread was titled "Avidya" which is a Sanskrit word whose literal meaning is ignorance, delusion, unlearned and unwise.

Here is a link to Avidya:

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2597117&page=1

My second thread was titled "Vidya" which is also a Sanskrit word whose literal meaning is correct knowledge or clarity.

Here is a link to Vidya :

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2601644&page=1

My third thread was titled "Sati-sampajanna" means a clear understanding of reality appearing in the present moment.

Here is a link to Sati-sampajanna :

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2607958&page=1

My fourth thread was titled "Panna-vimutti" which means deliverance through wisdom.

Here is a link to "Panna-vimutti" :

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2614294&page=1

My fifth thread was titled "titikSate" whech means suffer with courage or patience, bear with firmness, endure patiently.

Here is a link to "titikSate" :

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2621248&page=1

The name I have chosen to title this thread is the Sanskrit word "kavikratu".

kavikratu means one who possesses wisdom or sacrifices, full of discernment, having wise designs, having the insight of a wise man or fully wise insight.

I do not possess this quality now but hope to by the end of this thread. Thank you for all you support during these difficult months.

[mutatio]

It appears that my wife is satisfied with the current living arrangement. Her interactions with the kids are pleasant and positive. Speaking to me only when it's necessary is tolerable so I have something to be thankful for tomorrow. I am grateful and appreciate my situation. Happy Thanksgiving DB family.

[dday]

Mutatio, happy thanksgiving. From where I sit, you already are a wise man. You always shed light for me on my sitch, and for others as well.

Hope you have a great holiday! Enjoy it

[mutatio]

I have noticed that people disappear from the board over time. I knew this would happen in my head. Now that I experience it my heart grows heavy. It reminds me of the impermanence of life and everything in it. I guess losing people on the board is a metaphor for our lives. Be well

[vise82]

Hey Mutatio,

About the board I notice too, there seems to be a lot of turn over. I see new users all the time. I am almost 6 months into this. It would be interesting to see the numbers on it, number of new members to the group, and how long people stay here. Its a great place as I would be in a padded room right now if it were not for this group.

I guess you are contemplating when you are going to leave this group?

[Fogg]

It does get a bit overwhelming at times to see all the new names and then others just dissappear. More troubling when someone new just searching for answers falls off after a few posts. As hard as BD is for many of us it makes you wonder what happened to them. That or someone who's struggling with suicidal thoughts just suddenly stops posting.

That's just the hard reality of the people that come to the site. Many of us come here at the lowest point in our lives and there are some that don't survive it.

I hope for the best with many of them but I know there are some posts in these archives where a person said there last words and it troubles me at times. I guess that's something we all have to be thankful for today, life.

[gonegrl]

Mutatio, I hope you are having a great Thanksgiving. You are one of my favorite posters and I hope you aren't planning to leave the board!

[asitis]

Just making an appearance to say I was thinking of you all. Part of the fading away can be that life gets busy once you allow it to happen rather than over-focusing on our Ss.

Have a great Thanksgiving!

[PigPen]

Happy Thanksgiving Mutatio! All that wonder are not lost, my friend. I would imagine that this board is going to a be coming and going spot for most of us for a while.

My thoughts are with you and your family today.

Big man hug,

PP

[mutatio]

Hi, I commented about missing my good friends and they come by and say hello. I was reflecting yesterday about all the things I am thankful for and you all were on the list. I would not be where I am now without you.

I am not leaving the board. If it appeared that way, it was because I was sad because it seemed some of you were. I am happy to interact with anyone here but there is something special about some of you. When I wandered into the DB camp lost and confused I was given shelter from the storm. I will never forget the kindness I was given. This is where I felt the compassion I was not getting at home. So with that said, please know you are loved and I care deeply for your well being.

What is interesting is without the distraction of the physical presence we are share our true selves. We share a different connection then the people in our everyday life. They are distracted by the wrapping paper, a lot of them never see the gift. You are all gifts to me and I truly appreciate you.

Thank you for you kindness, compassion and patience, you are truly loved.