Years I spent waking up this particular morning with W. Years we spent cooking and drawing up plans for the day and dinner. Years I spent looking forward to a good time with family and sharing drinks laughter and love. Right now I miss it so much I am stuck and and unsure of what to do or where to go. Everything else seems beside the point and just a phone call or text would make this much better to handle. Alas she is enjoying this morning and this time with someone else. Many of you are going through this initial holiday season alone and many have been through it already. Knowing this helps to remember I am not alone in this. As alone as I might feel I am not alone.
I thank every one of you for the support and encouragement. The stories of R that give hope. The stories of life after D that give hope. The stories we all tell one another and express in words that we read and feel without ever knowing or seeing eachother live and in person. This is a support no other group could provide because we all are or have been in the thick of it. To share my loneliness here allows me to share a friendship here at the same time.
I wish you all a wonderful time today with or without those we miss. Together with all the learning and growing we are undergoing we are a part of something huge in each of our individual small worlds. Thank you.
