I am very sorry to read about your grandmother. My thoughts and prayers are w/you and your family.

Whatever your h wants to talk about can wait until the holiday is over and your grandmother is laid to rest.

Please take care of yourself.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.